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I gave you my heart.
10 years.
From the start,
I was all in.

I encouraged your ability
wanted you to feel
More than a Man,
never less,
I did my best.

Would have done anything
You hear me!
A-N-Y-T-H-I-N-G
To make you happy,
only wanting in return
for you to love me.

Love me as I loved you
no reservations
no heistations
unconditionally.
But selfishness interfered
guess it was never to be.

10 years,
you bruised my heart
and my body,
with each strike
killing off a piece of
me.

And still I loved.
I believed.
Despite your blame,
and feeling the shame.
That inside, you too loved me.

But as parts of me died
so did my love.
A chill came over my heart
emotion faded to black..
My turn to be on the attack.

Yet all I could do
was protect my heart
I built a wall,
each day,pusing farther.
Survival mode, protecting me.

Soon everyone became my enemy.

So I isolate, surrounding
myself with a select few.
Who never really knew.
Still dont feel safe,yet myself
I cant totally displace.

Now Im in the "process"
Trying to "progress"
pulling myself out of the regress.
Making sure this time my kindness
wont be my weakness.

Im learning forgiveness.
Im evovling everyday.
Hoping one day
I will feel OK..
in my Own.